What is time, some people think time is just the ticking away of the clock. We have to get to work on time can’t be late. Have to get to the doctors on time we can be a little late but not too much.

Some people think the earlier the better, I don’t believe that. I think that if we are too early for appointments we start getting impatient and frustrated and that turns into anger, and we start getting cross with people for no reason at all, it’s not their fault we have to wait longer, we’ve done it to ourselves. And if we have small children being real early is a big mistake, because they get bored and they start doing things that will get them into trouble when it’s not their fault either. I try not to be more than 20 minutes early or I start getting mean and nasty(not a good thing).

My ex-husband always likes to leave the house 2 hours early for my grandsons baseball games when he was on a traveling team, If the GPS says it takes 30 minutes to get there he is leaving 2-1/2 hours early and then he gets mad when my grandson wants to run and play, it’s not his fault he is a normal child and a boy on top of it and that is double trouble, Trust me. Don’t get me wrong girls can be a little crazy too, but not as bad as boys.

Other than making sure you make it to your appointments, work or school on time. The timing of when things are done is very important. Like when you should buy a new car or move into another home. Ok all of this is important, but what is really important is Gods time.

Are you going to church? Do you believe in The Lord, in Jesus Christ? If not what are you waiting for? There is no time better than now. You can get the new car or home if you don’t believe, but how long will you have it. I’ve seen it happen.

An ex-boyfriend bought a brand new truck the kind he always dreamed of, he had 4 or 5 credit cards. He had it all for about 2 or 3 years then he started having trouble with his finances and he was falling behind in all of his payments and couldn’t catch up. He lost all but 1 or 2 of his credit cards. Now he has regrouped and started over again, but he will lose it all again. All because he doesn’t believe.

How about doing something for yourself. How about time for God? You say “I can’t too much to do, not enough time in the day”. I have said this myself or I would say “I will try to find some time”. I know that will never work because you wont do it, I never did.

Well now is the time, and I figured out a way w can make time to read our bibles and talk to God. You may think it is weird, and some of it is. Almost everyone when they go into the bathroom takes their cell phone or some other type of electrical device. So instead of going on a social media site, listening to music, watching a video or playing a game. Bring up the bible on your device and read. And when you are driving to work, school or anyplace else, turn your radio to a Christian music station and praise the Lord and you can pray and talk to the Lord, I do it all the time. Yeah some people might think you are crazy, so what. Anyway with technology today they might think you are using your blue-tooth talking. I talk to God all the time and out loud, co-works ask me if I’m talking to myself and I say nope I’m talking to God and yes they me alone. What are they thinking about me, I don’t know and I don’t care, because I am going to do it no matter what.




70b52e3484b0adf798a379786ed35572Self-worth is something a lot of people struggle with every day. I know I do, but not as bad as I use to. We all had different childhoods and life-styles, some had a great life growing up and some not so great. And sometimes it really doesn’t matter what your childhood was like, because you still struggle with it.

When you are put down by others it gets worse. You are told that you are useless, your stupid, an idiot, a dummy, you can’t do anything right, your ugly, your too fat.  You start believing these things they are saying, and you start saying them yourself. Most of the time this starts when we are children and it usually begins with our parents or other kids at school. They are harsh and painful words.

Then you have those that their lives are ok they just roll with the flow so to speak. They have jobs that pay the bills and puts food on the table, they get by and they are happy. And there are also those who struggle with money and getting the bills paid and they start thinking that they are not good enough for anything and/or they can’t do anything right or everybody would be better off if I’m dead. I have been in that place where I didn’t know how I was going to get anything paid or how I was going to buy food for my children.

When things start to go wrong you wonder why and then you start giving yourself pity parties, when you thinking that you can’t do anything right, you hate yourself and your life. I was always told life is what you make it. You start saying the same things about yourself, putting yourself down when you make little mistakes or big ones.

People look for their worth in different places and things, but you have to look for your self-worth through God. Because God loves each and every one of us. We are worthy of everything in his eyes. A lot of people don’t believe this because they have done and are doing things that are sinful and you think you are unworthy of his love, but we are all loved by our father God. He will always be with us and he will never leave us.


When we pray we should ask God to show us what our worth is he will show, maybe not right away but he will show you in his time.

I use to struggle in the worst way about my self-worth, I always thought I was stupid and I couldn’t do anything right, a failure, I’m to fat(I still believe this one). None of these things are true, yeah I can stand to lose some weight. I’m not the only person who struggles about these things and guess what we can’t help thing this was because it is what we have heard as we were growing up at home or at school, at work.

I learned a very important message with the help from my Pastor and the rest of my church family that none of what I believed to be true is not, they showed me that if I put my faith and beliefs in the Lord and ask him for help, and how to live my life the correctly way.

I am still learning but I am trying very hard to walk in the light, I pray everyday, sometimes all day asking for his help and love. I talk to God all day like I am talking to a friend because I am. And if I’m not praying or talking to the Lord, I’m singing his praises.

I know my self-worth now, but it took me some time to see it. But I do struggle on occasions and the Lord gives me a push and I’m good. Thank you Lord.

I was just looking for some pictures and I came across one that had 29 ways to increase your feelings of your self-worth. I had to laugh, I’m sorry but to me they are all wrong, you can not measure your worth by the things you have or the things you do unless it is through our Lord Jesus Christ. Yeah you might be on top for awhile if you don’t, but trust me you will fall, some harder than others, but fall none the less.

Your self-worth is through the Lord. He will help you just accept Jesus in your heart, pray to him, read his word in the Bible, be one with the Lord and you will see changes in yourself. The more you believe and love the Lord the more you will grow in the Lord.

You will never be perfect, no one is but the Lord. I’m still learning and growing it’s a great feeling.

Dear Father God,                                                                                                                         Thank you for being there for me and with me. Father God, thank you for the people you have put in my life. Father God, thank you for teaching me how to believe in you. Thank you Father God for showing me that I am worthy of your love. Thank you Father God for giving us your son Jesus as our savior…In the precious name of Jesus Christ…….AMEN!!!



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When I went to school we had many nationalities, Blacks, Whites, Hispanics, ok you get the picture. We also had a variety of religious people. That has not changed, we still have the same types of people in our schools today as we did back then. They took prayer and the bible out of the school system in 1962-1963. They said a prayer  before a football games as well as other sports. We sang “God Bless America”, “America the Beautiful” and “The Star Spangle Banner.

In doing my research I found out that teachers can not promote religious or antireligious beliefs, however a student is not the government and can take their bibles into the school and read them they can also pray alone or with a group as long as they are not disrupt the school or interfere with the rights of others.

We had bibles in hotel rooms. I went to see a Joyce Meyer conference with some of my church family and that was awesome, but at the hotel we stayed in didn’t have any bibles other than the ones we brought and I searched the whole room, it made me sad. I did some research and fund out that a lot of hotels/motels have stopped putting bibles in the rooms because they are afraid of offending people, however you can request a free Gideon bible when you book your room.

I get mixed responses when I say Merry Christmas and when I say God Bless You when someone sneezes instead of just saying bless you and guess what, I will always say Merry Christmas and God Bless You to people. I can hear someone sneeze 2 aisles over or on the other side of the room and I will say out loud God Bless You. It is my God given right and I will take full advantage of that right.

Last year my grandson and I had a disagreement, if saying “Merry Christmas”, or “Season Greetings” was correct. I know with the way the world is today the proper saying is “Season Greetings”, but I will always say “Merry Christmas” after all it is about celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ. People didn’t stop saying “Happy Easter” and that is about celebrating the Resurrection of Jesus Christ. I always have and I always will say Merry Christmas and Happy Easter.

I don’t get offended when people talk about their beliefs and I don’t understand why they get offended when I speak about mine.




As humans we are always loosing things, then we go on a rampage searching and searching and more time that not it’s right under our nose. We lose our keys and they are right in our hand, or we are looking for glasses and they are on our face or on top of our heads, then we laugh at ourselves. Sometimes we are looking for something and we don’t even know what it is or were to find it.

One time we lost one of my sons shoes, he was 2 years old at the time, we hunted all over the house and couldn’t find it. We checked the toy box, the trash (throwing things away was his favorite thing to do at the time) finally we gave up for awhile. Later, I went to do dishes and guess what was sitting there in the sink was his shoe the only place in the house that we didn’t look.

We even lose our train of thought. Having a conversation and all of a sudden you forgot what you were talking about (happens to me all the time). A few days ago I went to a women conference with some dear friends from church and the speaker was talking and then all of sudden she said, “what was I talking about.” She totally lost her train of thought. We all do it, I know I do.

We have lost all kind of things like our jobs and we have to look for a new and hopefully better one. We lose our homes for one reason or another. And we even feel like we are losing our minds sometimes, I know that I feel like that a lot, especially when things get tough and I don’t know where to start finding the solution. Then I learnt that I have to turn it over to God, trust me he does help.

But most of us have lost ourselves, we realize something is missing and we are not happy anymore(if we ever were), so we go searching, looking high and low and finding nothing. We try getting boyfriends/girlfriends to fill the space, It works for a little while but not completely, the person we thought was it isn’t. We try all kinds of things to fill the void. then we start getting discouraged and we start believing that our life is pointless and feeling worthless(a feeling I know all to well). We start wondering why am I here, why was I born, I’m not good enough, what is my purpose? All these questions and no answers, well there is an answer. Ask God and he will supply the answers we seek.


What if we don’t believe in God or we don’t know who he is, we will never know the answers to those questions. We have to accept The Lord into our hearts and he will give us the answers, he has also given us a purpose in life and to some it’s clear what it is, but to others it’s not and you have to ask God to show you what it is, he will tell you in his own time. I’m still not sure what my purpose is, but I know God will reveal it to me when he says I ready for it. What is important is to find out who you are in Christ.

When we accept Jesus in our heart, we will have found what was missing.


thOJ3EA89YBefore I start lets define what a miracle is. It is to have something special happen or something that changes your life. Some miracles are small and you don’t realized that it happened and some are really big that are WOW!

A lot of people don’t believe in miracles, because they have never seen one or the miracle that has happened to them were so small they didn’t know they had one. Well when I was younger I wasn’t sure if I believed in miracles or not, I mean I had things happen and didn’t realize that they were indeed miracles at the time. Some miracles are really life changing. Let me tell you about some.

The most important miracles were giving birth to my beautiful children, I didn’t realize that they were miracles at the time, but I did later on in life. Not only were they miracles, they are blessings also and I love them dearly.


Another miracle happened in 1986 when I was driving early one morning and there was black ice on the road, I thought the road was just wet (I was young and didn’t know the difference). I started to make a right turn and all of a sudden my car started spinning to the left, complete opposite direction than I was trying to turn, yes I was terrified, but the only thing I could think of was to take my  hands off the wheel and lifted them in the air like I was surrendering and I was. My car stopped less than a foot from a light post. All I could do was sit there and cry saying thank you Lord over and over. I really didn’t think it was a miracle at the time I was just happy the car stopped before hitting the pole, but It truly was a miracle and even now I think back and I still say thank you Lord for stopping the car. If the Lord wasn’t with me, I might not be here today.

In 1991 I was in the car with my children, we stopped at a store to get some drinks, as we were leaving the store they were arguing over who was going to sit in the front seat, so I told them because they were arguing that they both were sitting in the back. I thank God every day since, that I made that decision, because a few miles down the road there was a car stopped for no reason; no brake lights, no turn signals, not a stop sign or traffic lights in the area and no traffic coming the other way to prevent the car from turning. And I didn’t realize the car wasn’t moving right away and when I did I hit the brakes and swerved to my right, sad to say I was to close to a telephone pole and I hit it on the passenger side meanwhile my kids were in the back seat with their drinks. They both had their seat belts and their drinks were sitting in between  their leg and not in their mouths because both of them hit their heads on the back of the front seats. I don’t want to think what would have happened if they were drinking at the time of impact. I thanked Jesus for what didn’t happen. Now in my eyes that was truly a miracle. And every time I think or talk about it I start crying and yes I was crying as I wrote this. Oh by the way the woman driving the other car got out and checked on us, but left before the police showed up.

There are more miracles that have happened in my life, but this will turn into a book if I continue.

But Jesus performed miracles all the time in the bible like:

“Turning water into wine” John 2:1-1

“Walking on water” Matthew 14:25-33, Mark 6:48-52 and John 6:15-21


“4,000 people fed” Matthew 12:32-39 and Mark 8:1-9

How about “Money from fish” Matthew 17:24-27.

There are so many other miracles in the bible I can go on and on, but there again it would turn into a book.

Jesus performed many miracles in the bible. And he continues to perform miracles everyday, just take time to look around you, your children, your spouse everything in our lives are miracles.

If you don’t believe me, just look in the mirror and you will see a wonderful miracle.

Can you tell me some miracles that you have experienced. I would enjoy reading them. God Bless.





We normally start learning about God as a child. But that is not always the case. Some people don’t learn until they are teens or adults and some may never learn at all.
We learn what a wonderful God he is and how he sent his only begotten son to live amongst us and die for our sins. And we learn of the miracles he performs everyday.
We learn how to pray and speak to God. We are told what we should pray for and what not to pray for. Most of us were never told that we can just speak to God as we would speak to our friends.

Well you can, God wants us to talk to him and not just in our mind, he already knows what we are thinking, he wants to hear our voices, I talk to God all the time, some people think I’m just talking to myself, but I’m not and sometimes I tell them I’m talking to the Lord. Some believe me and some just laugh, but I don’t care.

Some people don’t know how to pray or what to pray for. Here is what you should pray for first: pray for the Lord to look into your heart and show you what to do. Pray for love and peace in your heart, and in your life. Pray for forgiveness. Pray for understanding, and ask the Lord to show you what you should be doing and where you should be going.

Some people pray for earthly goods, they want a fancy house or sporty new cars or more money than they know what to do with. News flash you can’t take it with you when you die. When you should be praying for God to lead you to the path that you need to be walking and how to accept Jesus into your heart, to walk as Jesus did, to love as Jesus does. We need to ask our heavenly father how to be one with Jesus. We need to learn how to hand over all of problems to God and not to take them back. He will show us how to handle them and in the right order.   But not only should we learn how to pray and speak with God. We need to learn how to listen and not with our ears but with our hearts, because that is where God is speaking to us, but we need to listen.


There is a line in the song “Different” by Micah Tyler: I don’t want to hear anymore, teach me to listen. Ok now you want to know the difference between hearing and listening, well I will tell you.

Hearing: is hearing the words that are being spoken or hearing the voice of the person speaking. But not hearing the meaning of what is being said.

Listening: is not only hearing what is being said, but really hearing the words and the meaning. Now this doesn’t mean that you will understand what is meant what was said.

When I am trying to understand what the Lord is saying to me and I just don’t get it. I will look up and say(yes out loud) Lord I don’t understand, please help me understand what you are trying to tell me. Sometimes it takes awhile, but be patient the meaning will come.

The Lord is always listening to you.



IMG_20170919_132924_01All my life I have heard people say, “I will never forgive.” And I know people today who still say the same thing. Now I have always known that you should forgive. It was hard for me at times to even think about forgiving.

Everyone knows, “The Lords Prayer” Matthew 6:9-13, but not to many people know or have read Matthew 6:14-15

14-For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

15-But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

I never knew until about a year ago when I read it and I was like wow. It’s like telling your child they don’t get dessert if they don’t eat all of their dinner. I know that is not the same thing, but that is the way I took it.

I have done some thinking on the subject,  and realized that I can’t stay mad at someone for long no matter how hard I’ve tried. Now there are two stories that I am going to share with you: My ex-husband and I got divorced in 1989 that’s 28 years ago wow that’s a long time. We are friends now and have been for about half of that time, we have forgiven each other for the things we have done. We never told each other that we forgive what happened, but we did.

The other story is more recent. I was with a man for 23 years(no we never married). I found out he was cheating, of course he denied it and the first time I let it go, the second time I was not so nice, and the last time he was caught in the act and when I confronted him and yeah I tried to hit him a few times, he picked me up and threw me and fractured my ribs. No I didn’t press charges as others said I should.

I needed help with my lawn mower. It took me over 2 weeks to call him for help. And the only reason I thought to ask him is because I knew he could and would fix it and not charge me too much if anything for doing it.

After I called him, he said he would be over by the weekend. So I told my mom that he was coming to get, she looked at me and said, “Wow you really did learn to forgive”.

Forgiving is very hard to do at times. So my question to you is: How do you know when you really forgiven someone?

Please answer the question honestly. Shortly I will tell you how I know that I have forgiven someone.